Womb Words: Same moon, different world

This is not the world of our ancestors. It is far removed from the world of our grandparents. And now, we must at least acknowledge that this is not even the world of our mothers anymore.


You know the issues. You have seen them, have them, heard about them.

CHILDREN having severe eczema when they have been exclusively breastfed and mom was on an organic allergen-free diet throughout pregnancy and postpartum. WHAT THE HECK.

Childhood obesity, childhood diabetes. PCOS, Endometriosis, thyroid and postpartum issues out the wazzoo…
If I didn’t know any better, I would say women and children are under attack.
I don’t negate or ignore what men are experiencing. The prostate, thyroid, adrenal, heart, kidney, muscular, developmental, and sexual malfunction in our world today are INSANE. Not to mention cancer.
Some people try, so very hard! Eat this not that, exercise and detox… And still get nailed. Others dont try at all and seem to be healthy as horses until they drop. But now, even the “I can do and eat anything” supergiants like my dad are showing chinks in their armor. 
The things coming at us today are like nothing the world has ever faced.
We don’t have the cushion of time to prepare for hard news when it can be texted to us. (Break-ups?)

And our adrenal glands have a difficult enough task sorting out if the stressful and violent things we see in the news and on tv or movies have happened to us in reality. Our adrenals can even be confused by dreams, the original virtual reality. When you see footage of bombings, riots, abuse, fighting, your body literally thinks you experienced it. Because you are taking it in through your eyes, on the screen of your mind…
Teenagers are exhibiting the amount of stress associated with mental patients in 1950.
Speaking of the 50’s, back then folks used to laugh an average of 18 minutes total per day. Now? It’s closer to 7 minutes.
Simple farm foods like fruits, vegetables, even water can be tainted or carrying disease, toxins, and worse into our bodies as we attempt to heal and nourish them.
The oh so informed “They” are wondering if this will be the first generation to preceed their parents in death.*

Light pollution in most places is interferring with the moon’s light. 

This affects us because that natural glow and its changing course (plus gravity field) used to be the guide by which the bodies of women regulated the menstrual cycle. It was a near given that on the full moon, give or take a day or two, every women who could bleed did. For just 3 days usually, together. 

But due to isolation, insulation, and hormonal interferance through drugs, chemicals, and food, there is now at least one woman menstruating every minute of every day! 

Imagine the difference our planet can sense in that…
This also means that natual family planning is much harder for the modern woman since that regular means of prediction is out the window. It used to be so intuitive, something solid to set your clock by. What must that have been like, right??!! 

Granted there have always been women experiencing difficulty with their cycles, whether unable to concieve or carry to term and have a healthy delivery.

And for that, there were the midwives. The wise women. The “yarb (herb) women”. The witches.
Massage, prayer, grounding, herb teas and baths and tinctures. Accupressure, sexual positions, healing foods and restorative movement, these were the tools of the midwives and witches who tended the health, birth, and death of the world for centuries.

Whatever you have heard before about these women, their societies, and their practices, I want to offer you more.

I have studied natural healing remedies in both a modern setting and what historical information can be found. I have pieced together this archetype of Witch, Midwife, Wise Woman from commentary, social studies, history, and finally by analyzing the psychology behind where we used to be and where we are today.
Something important to be known is that the term Witch didnt used to be a bad thing. Not until the odious spread of the Christian church under Constantine, threats of “assimilate or die” cheerfully handed down to the local culture being conquered. There are almost too many threads to pull when it comes to this loaded term and its turbulent history, but until I can cover them all or you uncover them on your own, just imagine feeling the same way about the word “doctor” as you do witch. Hard, huh? One conjours up images of a peaceful and compassionate person who knows what ails you and fixes it as quickly as they can. The other is a germy figure in a haze of superstition and misinformation, grasping at straws and demanding your respect and obedience regardless of the outcome or they will make your life miserable. That’s been my experience with a lot of doctors, anyway. 

Yep, first one is Witch for me.
Moving on! The Archetype of Witch or Wise Woman can be seen as the “average”. Not every one knew everything, some more and some less. Some we better equipped, others more knowledgable. So I refer then to the collective They.

When these women were the default village “healer”, they and the moon knew the paths of a woman’s body. They knew, handed down and from exploration or experience, how to make a pregnancy succeed by strengthing the womb and regulating the ovaries. They could soothe a sick baby, speed and ease delivery of one, help a woman avoid pregnancy if she wished or needed to, make comfortable the aged and terminal, and soothe the dying on their way.

They often knew more about sex than the average person, particularly solitary exploration for more pleasure than procreation. Consumed with survival and work, most people didnt have time to lift their head for study or learning, beyond their own craft and home needs. And parents taught children, so the ignorance perpetuated unless you went to the wise woman. 

Another thing the witches knew was how to control the womb that had gone ahead with its design and was knitting human tissue that wasn’t welcome. See my previous post on herbal abortion.

It wasn’t harsh. It wasn’t sudden. It wasn’t anyone else’s business.

(Quite often in those days women wouldnt tell their husband they were expecting until it was far enough along to be sure. The manual labor aspect of life in those days made it a chancy thing.)

So when an overworked mother of six missed her cycle and couldnt feed another mouth in 9 months, she went to the witch and came away with tea and massages until her flow began again.

When a young girl was abused by an uncle, a teen raped by her boyfriend or soldiers on the road…

When a couple came together, the husband fearful of how much blood there had been last time his wife gave birth and how tired she had been months afterward. Or the wife eager to help her husband in the fields so they could earn enough to move away to a farm of their own.

The lives of our ancestors were not so unlike ours in motivation.

And the midwife knew how to bring about what was desired.

It was between her and her client. And the moon.

Birthing, too, was utterly private. Even the father was not allowed. 
Womb business was never meant to be a public spectacle, nor up for public debate.
There are ways the new medicines and old practices can progress hand in hand. Part of the issue is “old wise women” out of touch with the hacked and messed up bodily systems the modern person deals with, and their natural remedies failing. This fuels the anti-herbal prejudice of the white coats, doctors who can see and understand the science at work. Yet are often no closer to a solution themselves, and do their best to prescribe something that deals with the worst symptom and brings in a host of others.
I believe many herbal remedies aren’t taking the way they used to. Or are taking longer, having less effect, etc. 

I believe this confuses the wise women who know what worked for their granny. And the results that natural remedies DO get confound the doctors and scientists!
In the past, this battleground got very bloody. Women in black with herbs across from men in white coats with chemicals and surgery.

Even today in some Appalachian Mountain communities, doctors are not welcome. And in most city hospitals, herbs and oils are heavily criticized and practically illegal.
It is time to end this feud.

We all need each other’s medicine, the world is sick and too many people are hurting.

As with religion, the way forward for medicine is Progressive.

A doctor who will refer you to an herbalist if that’s what you need to heal. Or do a surgery if that is truly in your best health.

And a shaman who will tell you to get your ass to the doctor when your physical body needs it.
Every person who stewards health, the gateway of existance that is the womb, or the threshold between Life and Death is a special soul with much laying on their shoulders. Many have come to this life loaded with innate knowledge of healing from ancestors or past lives spent in this field.

We all need each other, every tool we can possibly have, for the sake of the patient.
And women need the consent, trust, education, privacy, and empowerment that working with witches over their cycle used to give them.
Witchery has always been about women’s rights and bodily autonomy. It’s known by other names now, but maybe it shouldn’t be.

A tidbit to help you discover the people behind this amazing Archetype: Black as a color repells negative energy. Wise women have always known how to deal with the haters. 
I’m with the Witches. And Progressive Medicine. (Look it up, it’s a thing!)

XO,

Sarah
*I never intend to bring up negative info without the balance of Hope. If this has distressed you, PLEASE look up Medical Medium by Anthony William! Website, books, Instagram, Facebook. I can attest from personal experience and recommending it to someone worse off than I, this protocol WORKS!! There truly is hope, we can all heal and enjoy life again! More on this later, I just couldn’t leave anyone sad or in fear.

     

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Womb Words: Herbal Control

It’s time to put some details together about Abortion that have been floating in the atmosphere. Im pretty surprised it’s not more common knowledge, but if no one else is going to hop on this particular topic, I will.

Did you know that there are plants out there that will induce a miscarriage? Meaning, close to a dozen plants (in their natural and God created state) exist on this earth to give a woman control over her fertility cycles.

What does that tell you about God?

What it tells me is that God trusts women and wants them to have a choice about when, how, and how many children they have.

I can hear the arguments because I grew up with them, and because they used to be mine. I’ll walk you through roughly the same thought process I had.

It is not a credible argument to attempt a loose symbolism between those plants and “the forbidden fruit.” (Which was forbidden for a reason- knowledge of good and evil, i.e. Self doubt and Overthinking. Not forbidden because it was a pleasure or an escape or a medicine)

After Eden, if all that occurred in precisely the terms of the King James Bible, even a literalist must be convinced that no where did God mention leaving forbidden plants around merely to tempt us.

And lest anyone bring up The Tempter, all he could create were illusions. These plants are very real.

SO! Into the breach, dear friends.

Let’s discuss this, since emmenogouge plants mean God had family planning, up to and including abortions, in mind.

Some may argue that since there are many beneficial attributes to these herbs that support fertility, menopause, and PMS as well as healthy labor and delivery, that the abortofacient properties are an example of misusing the herb.

Yet there are herbs whose sole purpose lies in the process of initiating and completing abortion.

So, where does that leave us?

I conjecture that what grieves and disgusts many into impassioned frenzies against the proceedure is the sheer medical gore and apparent ruthlessness that the modern abortion and coat hanger era conjures.

With this, I must address The Silent Scream. Many anti-choice proponents refer to this movie often, and many pro-choicers don’t know how to follow it.

When I was considering my own choices and deciding on an abortion, I came across the information in The Silent Scream.

I lurched back from my computer, crying and gibbering to Heaven that I could not, would not, do that if the fetus would be so conscious.
I’m not a monster, no woman is. I have experienced a miscarriage of a wanted child, long awaited pregnancy and difficult birth of a wanted child, this was all hard enough without causing pain to another human organism.*
I asked God that if this was truly the best plan for my life, I needed proof my heart could resonate with that at under 20 weeks the living tissues forming wouldn’t truly be suffering. Spirit told me to Google scientific papers about fetal pain experience.

This led me to the knowledge that, like many facts put forth by the “Pro-Life” movement, their understanding of the stages of fetal development is scientifically off. 

It is true that near 8 weeks the muscular system forms enough to REFLEX. It is these reflexes to stimulii that appear to exhibit what we would equate as a response to pain.

However, the NEURAL CONNECTION in the brain that processes the experience of pain from stimulus to sensation is NOT developed until closer to 24 weeks. Barely 1% of abortions occurr around then, almost exclusively medically necessary to save the grieving mother’s life. I may have read or at least find it highly credible that in those cases the poor dear would be given at least as good of lethal injection as an inmate…
What this scenario of emotive constructs tells me as a student of human nature is that for the vast number of babies who are prepared for, wanted, or loved, we humans tend to obsess in the possibility of how soon they can experience our world on the outside. Anthropomorphic personification is more rampant in this generation than any other. And that’s fine! But we must be aware of it and know where to draw the line.

*I said human organism above because we do share that identity. But it is not yet classified as a being. With the pregnancy that resulted in miscarriage at 10 weeks, I had already been reading on baby development and talking to it. Yet scientifically that makes as much sense as petting a rock. It’s all in one’s perspective. Really it just has to do with how wanted the baby is. Pregnancy with my daughter was much the same way, and while I was being told by pro-life friends and family that “Of course she can hear you” and so on, I knew within my Self and body that it was pointless to be carrying on conversations and bonding until well after 20 weeks. I felt nothing but some bodily discomfort until then. 

Close to 24 weeks with her, I began to feel suddenly unalone, like when someone is watching you or you thought you were the only one in a room.

I have since seen energy scans of the female body at times in a woman’s cycle and duration of pregnancy to birth, confirming that the energy doubles and swirls as the second consciousness begins to inhabit.

Not to go entirely woo-woo, but that is exactly the vision I had when we thought we were pregnant years previous and I was trying to feel like bonding before 20 weeks. Before then, the consciousness/soul of the new person just peeps in at the new digs, but remains seperate until those neural connections are fully formed.

Talk to your blueberry, your Blip, rub your lime and cherish your lemon. But the child you will birth and love is not there yet. 

Take a load off. I know you’re excited, but you still have some months to focus on yourself.
I find it tragic that because of The Silent Scream and subconscious cultural trend towards early personhood, a good doctor skilled at a medical proceedure was put off forever by something humans were perhaps not meant to see.

There is no tube to flinch away from with an herbal abortion, but as the herbs take affect and the placenta detaches, the uterus contracts, would not an observed fetus also be seen in the muscular reactions of distress? Oxygen supply going, heart failing, blood thinning, body squishing to bits in the contractions.

I am no stranger to these facts, and the truths of what abortions are, herbal or otherwise.

YET. These herbs were supplied by the creator. This harsh reality is a sometimes necessary one.
Any death carries some tragedy.

Life is precious. All life.

Yet we are so removed from the sights of death that this one remaining vestige is like a neanderthal’s ghost to be erradicated from our modern consciousness.

All life IS life.
And death is often a part of it.

How many animals have died for your life, your health, your food preferences? How many more will? And that mountain of blood, death, pain, and children and parents torn from each other is still not always a catalyst for vegetarianism. 

Why not?

Because I believe we humans are not truly unsettled by death.

How could we be, and have survived this long? Slaughtering animals used to be a celebration, or at least a family past time. 

Blood doesn’t bother us as much as we like to think. And I’m not here to say that it should.

We are closer in some ways to our ancestors than to our ascendant potential.

But we are oh so far from our ancestors in others.
Xo, 

Sarah

Womb Words: My Matrix

To this day I have a complicated relationship with my lady bits.

In this life, they have taught me many lessons about love, care, surrender, safety, health, and discernment.

I’ve come to know and love their cycles and functions, admiring the beauty of my own and those of other feminines.


My vulva and pubic mound are squishy from weight loss. I wish they were a bit tighter so my slit wasnt so hidden. I’m a tease like that.

I happen to like that I’m cleft high and tight, no ribbons. Though puffy. 

My upper and lower mouths match.

I do wish my clit was bigger. Think it’s on holiday with the progesterone from breastfeeding.

I still energetically feel the stitched scar in my perineum from tearing birthing my daughter.

Also the impersonal detachment I still feel for my genitals as a whole from that experience.

I still have excellent bladder control, though.

I’ve been soooo close to finding my g-spot, but at the same time it doesn’t interest me much.

See, after a certain Buzzfeed review I talked to the hubbs about wanting a Womanizer. He is passionately in favor of my pleasure, so I got it.

MY GOD. 

O.O

I almost didnt leave the house for 3 days. Slight exaggeration, but not much. Ever had a vibe NOT overstimulate you?!

I’m fairly certain my vaginal canal is naturally a bit wide. My husband isn’t that small, but I still preferred the shampoo bottles of my teens and that “stuffed” feeling.
Then, oh joy, we get to my cervix, uterus, and ovaries.

These guys have made my life pretty interesting. They need a lot of love, healing, and affirmation.

I was told at 17 that I had some sexual and reproductive health issues that would need addressing. My mom, who probably didnt want to hear those words connected with me until I was 25, said it could wait. Upon moving out at 18 I couldn’t afford to go to the naturopath on my own or for years. And those issues caught up with me.

A period so severe I fainted, blacked out, and almost bled out when I was 19.

A miscarriage our first year married.

False pregnancy symptoms a year later, which turned out to be Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).

Constant irregular periods, heavy cramping and bleeding, and thanks to PCOS, popping cysts. (A sharp cramp in your ovaries, so either side of your uterus, which is where they usually are.)

Another episode of mistaken pregnancy…

And, close to giving up and going to a doctor for IVF, pregnancy.

Snakebit to the toe at 8 months, two days after a move, my adrenals finished gasping out that they were done, thanks for nothing, so I was in bed with that and the foot until she was born.

Our homebirth ended up in the hospital, and because my daughter was in distress and so were we, I ended up on my back pushing her over the hill inside and tore from tail almost to teakettle.

With anovulation history and breastfeeding as my birth control, I ignored my spirit guides attempts to warn me that my body was healed and functional and to get a diaphragm.

That was the beginning of the end for me ignoring my body and my guides.
I knew I was ovulating that night we got frisky. I felt to put it off one night.

But parents of a toddler seldom listen to reason about sex, when they can get it at all.

For a month I was moody, increasingly tired, ill, no sex drive.

I had just ordered my diaphragm finally when I took a test on a whim.

My heart fell into my boots and beyond.

My intuition, body, and Spirit had all tried to spare me.

I had made a terrible mistake, and left my temple gates unguarded.

And the dear person who was answering Spirit’s call to finally incarnate had taken up my body’s invitation to begin weaving a home for itself.

I was going to have to disappoint that person.

Or was I?

All I knew for a long time inside my head was chaos.
You see, I was raised anti abortion. So was my husband.
Several months previous to this, I had run across an increasing number of blessed tumblr arguments and points that I had never been allowed to consider.

It took me from anti-abortion to pro-choice with reservations in about 3 days. I’m increasingly feeling that the right wing church as we know it has only survived because they terrified their followers into questioning and forbade them from using and understanding science.

One day, I brought it up to my husband.

First in the context of “in general”. As we talked that through and ultimately became pro-choice together, something moved me to ask about his feelings if it ever was our choice to make.

That was hard, at first.

But you know what was cool? That

his heart was already in line with the science and choice aspects, and the resistance was a house of cards he had grown up believing was necessary. 

That conversation and agreement was a month before.
I’ll be honest, I had a weeks’ worth of thoughts in the space of 5 minutes after I saw those two lines.

I’ll try to recount them.
I knew it.

How did I know? 

Wow I’m in tune.

But I ignored it.

My body is fixed! Yay!

My body betrayed me. AGAIN. Never the right fucking time, huh?

And we are about to move.

July 2017? Nova wouldn’t even be 2! I can’t do that to her.

Her? I can’t do that to MYSELF!

Oh my god. I would be on bedrest, I already almost am because of my adrenals! My body is not ready for birth again. I think it might actually kill me. 

Spirit told me to get a diaphragm. I didnt, am I being punished?

This is going to kill me.

Or at least my heart.

I’m going to become my mom.

I can’t do this!!!

Or could I? Two under two, get it all over with?

No, I had that dream. Nova was at least four years older than him, just like Tavin showed up as the 6 years older he would have been. And he will be an Otter. This is the wrong season to be pregnant.

This isn’t the child I still hold a picture of in my heart.

Ok, so who is it?

I feel no connection.

I don’t even feel pregnant beyond the symptoms.

I FELT, heard, knew, had dreams about Nova for years. I had time to get to know her before she even came, and I know I was meant to enjoy her and only her for several years.

So what does this mean? What do I do?
And, like a blanket being pulled up over me shivering in my sleep, my heart knew.

I was going to get to walk through something I had once judged.

I was being given the opportunity to see the positive side of abortion.

That was what I needed to do.
I won’t take you through the rest of my whirling mind, even I get lost in there sometimes.

There were doubts, mostly of the “Spirit, do you KNOW what I was taught all my life?! Do you know how hard this is for me?! Do you know what my church would do to me if they found out?!”

And part of me really wanted to chicken out.

To say, “Ignore those sinful and desperate parts, repent for your selfishness and do god’s will for women! This is your bed, lie in it and pay the price of your foolishness. You will be a mother, tied down and exhausted. That’s all there is, and you brought this on yourself. Look at the bright side! All your church will bless you and be excited, your mom too even though you’re moving. Maybe this will finally break that stubborn and highminded view of yourself. You know what to do. This clump of tissues has more rights than you do. Why? Becaus it is INNOCENT. It came when it was supposed to, and just wants to be loved. You dont let God love you. You dont let God guide you. You dont do what youre told when you’re told, and you have wasted so many opportunities and fucked up so much already! You ignored God’s advice to get birth control! Now, you pay. Forget your dreams, you are going to have this child and raise it, even if you die in the attempt or a little bit each day!”
Now… I know what you’re thinking. If this was a bar, my husband would have popped that summbitch in the nose about a quarter way through.

But we talk to ourselves like that, dont we?

And I realized… that wasn’t God talking. That wasn’t my beloved Spirit talking. 

That was my jailer. The Headmistress, I call her. In my TalkSpace therapy I finally met her in a writing exercise, and met her antidote- my inner goddess.
So I calmed down and took a deep breath or two, and asked God to tell me what to do.

What came was peace. Sober, sweet, convincing. 

I needed to have an abortion. I would be guided and blessed in everything, because while Spirit had tried to spare me there was also MUCH good to be added unto me by this experience.

And later, my husband did sock that summbitch in the mouth. He was at unexplainable peace as well about the abortion, and he silenced Headmistress with me.

I was bewildered, but thankful.

I dove into research. These studies covered so many topics and connected me to so many resources.

Woman Heal Thyself

Taking Charge of Your Fertility

Sister Zeus

naturalmiscarriage.org is still my favorite, I think.

Their global service of information for women in unsafe countries is a thing of great beauty.
I have to say, I tried everything I could.

The vitamin C emenagouge. The forbidden points of accupuncture. Massage of the womb, sex, spicy food, orgasm, heavy exercise.

Not a twinge.

My body was definately healthy.

And I prayed, a lot.

I had already been communicating with the spirit trying to incarnate before I even read on Natural Miscarriage that that was recommended.

I greeted it with Love, felt its hovering presence. I explained our family dynamics, our move, my daughter needing me, and my mistake to not guard my womb. 

I told it, gently but firmly, that while my body seemed available I was not yet available to be a mother again, and it needed to go. I told it I was going to have medical help to reset my period cycle, and its work to incarnate would cease. AND. I celebrated it’s attempt to join this crazy world. I thanked it for all the joy and Love it wanted to bring. And I told it about at least two women I knew who were desperate for babies would leap at the chance to bear it into existance. And released it to all women at this moment who would welcome a miracle child. 

I also made it clear that if it was a person I was destined to bear or know, I would happily welcome it back into my life at the proper time!!

I apologized to my own guides for not listening to them about the diaphragm, and thanked Spirit for the peace and comfort to walk where I must.

I genuinely felt the spirit understood me completely.

It neither blamed nor judged me, and even apologized a bit for its eagerness without checking that I was fully ready. Shyly, I was left with the impression it just thought I’d make a good mom.
This, to me, is honestly the most important step. It made the biggest difference in the process all the way through, for both me and my husband who did a modified version of the above. I cannot recommend this enough.

It is tragic that my mistake cost someone their chance of incarnating and the pain of abandoning their body. I never want to repeat that and hope there comes a day when safe birth control and family planning is so well taught and available that abortions stop alltogether. 

But I am grateful it was there, uncriminalized and safe, by a doctor with pain meds, rather bringing a child into the world that I was not ready to provide for, nurture, and love completely.
There’s more to the in-between, and maybe I’ll tell it one day.

But let’s return to Now.
My husband finally asked me the other day what it felt like. He had been curious this whole time, not in a sad or morbid way, but because he cares about everything I experience and is also wildly curious about the world. And he waited because he knew we would talk about it some day. We had a bit too much going on last month.
I had already told him about the beautiul people in the clinic who faced unimaginable energetic backlash from anti-abortion protestors to come to work each day yet be so sweet and kind.

I’d told him about the lady doctor who flew in from Portland each week to our southern town. 

I’d gone over the ultrasound and decison to have a printout, not running from the life there but honoring it and its part in mine.

So I told him about the pill that made me cramp, no harder than labor but a bit harder than the usual period.

I told him about the valium taking effect, and my first experience with a speculum (COLD). I told him about the serene feeling I was wrapped in that had nothing whatever to do with the drug, but rather the amazing deja vu I experienced the entire time. I had dreamed the whole operation long ago, without knowing what it was. All I knew from the dream was the light sparkled. I was laughing. I was ok and going to be even better.

And I told him about the curette, like a doctor scraping the top layer off a fresh scar. 

In short, I told him everything. Because that’s what we do.
And then he asked the most amazing question, the kind of question that makes me fired up to talk and explain. It reminds me why he is special, what I’m grateful for in him.

He asked what it felt like energetically and emotionally.

As previously mentioned, I felt that the Spirit and consciousness hovering for that being had departed in peace already. But there was a sensation of an energetic mass slipping away as the tissue was removed.

Much the same situation as when a highly intune person with female parts has a period. That energy draining.

I had already experienced the feeling of the cord cutting with that person long before the proceedure.
And, though I didn’t tell him then because I already have, I’ll tell you.

I felt LOVE. Unconditional, deep, wide, Divine, masculine and feminine balanced LOVE. That was the most connected to God-Consciousness I had been in a very long time. I learned some things, journaling as the pill dilated my cervix.

I am still learning them.

But I know because of it that Everything wants me to love myself.

I have a purpose, I deserve to heal and enjoy life, I am important and I am safe.

The Headmistress is weakening and The Goddess is rising.
Even now I’m not sure of the sum totality of my experience.

Was it right, was it wrong?

And I realize these are pointless questions.

It simply WAS.

Did I grow? Did I learn? Will I help another grow?

Those are all yeses.

So what I can say is this was a Yes experience.
I pray with all my heart, to Everything, that this blessed you to know.
Xo,

Sarah